Kamis, 31 Mei 2012

what the hell....

i'm tired bout this...
i feel so upset and mad with all these people... ++" i need to find my own time to myself, i didn't have enough rest today... no sleep!!!! i didn't sleep and 24hours work... GOD my head seems want to blow up to the air!!!
i'm so upset, my junior Taqdir break his promise to get me home after tough in HIPERMAWA,well... i'm still in basecamp till in the morning coz i have to help him to prepare b'day surprise for his Girl, and i though if he will drive me home after that but.... he didn't and still talks to his friends... when he saw me really get upset,then he asked me "do u wanna go home now???" what??? he really get me frustrated... it's early morning now... well... just  let the sun shine comes up then i'll go home by myself ><"
what the hell is that.....

bulan menari

bulan mengintip malu-malu dibalik awan yang temaram,sedikit demi sedikit menampakkan wajah sayu nan lembut. langkah kecil yang malu-malu menapak langit kelam. menggugah ekspresi sang bidadari dalam peraduannya.

KKN yang menggantung

31th may 2012
it's was long time ago that LPPM administrator told us if we will conduct our KKN oh june first, it's 31th may now.... and no response:(
bad policy is we can't trust what  they said to us... well... actually there is schedule but they didn't announce it yet... it's bad habit from our policy in this country anyway....
sometimes we should open mind about that and remind them,that what are doing right now make the students feel worry alias GALAU bro...
my proposal :( still no light come to my path bout that... i'm little bit worry about it!!! coz my first adviser is sick, MR.Kisman is sick hopefully he can  check my proposal ASAP... amiiinnnnn.... and for mam Muli, i have appointment with her  on saturday morning ^_^, she said there were lot of note on my proposal hehehe... poor me!!! still fighting on my proposal... GAMBARIMASU...
i feel little bit tired lately, actually really tired too busy... but i have more more n more believe that i can make my dream come true... goes to JAPAN to study FIGHT ON!!!!!
^_^

Minggu, 13 Mei 2012

cinta itu sakit atau kekuatan

13th may  2012
jantungku seolah berhenti berdetak,atau mungkin memang kembali berhenti berdetak. ketika aku merasa kenapa perasaanku yang mati kau bangkitkan kemudian ditikam lagi olehmu...
bingung.. cinta seharusnya membuat kita kuat bukan???
aku menyukaimu,dan kau salah mengartikan perasaanku!!! kau tidak mengenal personalityku,itu alasanmu, bingung.....
kau tak membenciku tapi juga kau berpikir yang negatif tentangku. kumohon jangan berpikir yang buruk tentangku... karena perasaan ini aku menjadi kuat,dan kumohon jangan lemahkan aku!!!! aku tak berharap kau menyukaiku sebagaimana aku menyukaimu. perasaan ini hanya untukku saja... aku menyukaimu senyummu!!
perjuanganku... semangat juangku semakin bertambah setelah mengenal dirimu,tetapi karena dirimu juga membangkitkan sisi terdingin dalam jiwaku. sekarang aku tak mengerti apakah cinta itu merupakan kekuatan yang menakjubkan ataukah rasa sakit yang menusuk kejantungku dan mengubahku menjadi pribadi yang lain....

Jumat, 11 Mei 2012


 LARUKU- hitomi no Juunin
Intro : G D F Em C G Am D

G                 Em         C     D
Kazoekirenai... demo sukoshi no saigetsu wa nagare
G                  Em          C           D                
Ittai kimi no koto wo dore kurai wakatteru no ka na?
Yubisaki de chizu tadoru you ni wa umaku ikanai ne
Kizuiteiru yo fuansou na kao Kakushiteru kurai

Bm        Em          Bm         Em   
Isogiashi no ashita e to teikou suru you ni
Bm             Em C                                        D
Kakemawatteite mo fushigi na kurai... kono mune wa kimi wo egaku yo

C               D           Bm           Em
Miagereba kagayaki wa iroasezu afureteita
C       D       Bm            Em                          
Donna toki mo terashiteru ano taiyou no you ni nareta nara

Em

Mou sukoshi dake kimi no nioi ni... dakareteitai na
Soto no kuuki ni kubiwa wo hikare boku wa se wo muketa

Shiroku nijinda Tameiki ni shirasareru toki wo
Kurikaeshi nagara futo omou no sa... naze boku wa koko ni irun'darou?

Soba ni ite zutto kimi no egao wo mitsumeteitai
Utsuriyuku shunkan wo sono hitomi ni sundeitai
Doko made mo odayaka na shikisai ni irodorareta
Hitotsu no fuukeiga no naka yorisou you ni toki wo tomete hoshii eien ni

Em C D
Em C D
Em C D
Em C F

Intro : G D F Em C G Am D

Soba ni ite zutto kimi no egao wo mitsumeteitai
Utsuriyuku shunkan wo sono hitomi ni sundeitai
Itsu no hi ka azayaka na kisetsu e to tsuredasetara
Yuki no you ni sora ni saku hana no moto e... hana no moto e

my lovely Bug

i can not believe that was happened to me, since i know you...
and then i feel something happen to my heart, the distance n my dignity for all the time, i don't care about that bcoz of him. he is the "Bug boy" just like a bug he fly away to my heart,but make it pain too...
my first confession was for him,...
i like him... yes i am, but i do not know why???